FIRST FASTING AT KTT

It was a sad day..huhuhu.it is because it was the first time I have to go through the fasting month without my beloved family..at first i dont think that I can accept this situation but I finally realize that whatever happend, I must face it...I still remember the day before the fasting day, I am really in a bad mood..my heart was pounding very fast thinking about tomorrow.. Where I have to start fasting without my  family..suddenly my phone was ringing..I was hesitated to pick up the phone because I know the person who is calling me is my beloved mama..At last i picked up the phone..I have to cover my voice coz i don't want my mama to know that I am crying when I speak to her..but i know mama was also sad coz mama know exactly how I feel that time..we were talking about tomorrow..the fasting day..i cannot talk any longer with my mama coz i was very sad at that time and I ask mama to stop our discussion about tomorrow..After mama ended the call, i cried and cried..I went to the toilet coz i don't want my housemate to know that I was crying..at night, I forced myself to do things that will make me happier.My housemate and I decided to go eat at the warong outside the college..after that, we hang out at student lounge..we watched television until 12 o'clock..Then we go back to our apartment..In the midnight, after all of my friends had slept, I still cannot close my eye. I cried while thinking about 'sahur' tomorrow..Little did I know that my friend can hear me crying..after that we crying together until all my friends wake up and talk with me and calm me down..they said that whatever happen, I still have them and we will always be together.they also said  that we are one big family..so that i must be patience for the time being..at last i go back to my room and continue to sleep..with all the strength that my friends give me i just accept the situation..at 4.30 o'clock we wake up for 'sahur'..thank God with all the strength, I did'n cry anymore..i just think positive..as a big girl, i have to be strong and cannot to cry...like Fergie song Big Girls Don't Cry..hehe..thanks my friends...i love all of you.......